for the first time in a long time i felt hurt. i’m scared of losing you and the worst part is i only blame myself. you are. y best friend and i hate feeling this way. i only want you happen and that’s why i refuse to burden you with me tears. i feel like you deserve a better best friend than me, some one who is more settled in life and not a reckless mess. when it comes to you i feel selfish because i hate sharing you not because i don’t want you to have friends or be happy in love but the fact you are the constant in my life and i’m not sure if i can make it in this world alone.
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I wonder if you know how I count
your smiles in my memories of you
fading away as you move on with
your life, how I gather teardrops
from dreaming of you sometimes,
and treasure them because they
feel warmer yet more wistful.But I smile for you, not because
I still want a future with you but
…
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yet you kept playing with me, saying that I deserved no mercy for my past actions and judgments. “We’re the same, you and I, we’re the monsters they fear even in the light,” you said, and I found strange comfort in that because it felt like I belonged here with you and all I wanted was a place to…
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everyone wants to be loved.
i desperately want to be loved by you.
you make me feel beautiful, and i never feel beautiful.
but you don’t see the love in my eyes
or hear it in my words.
you see right through me.
seven months spent with him just doesn’t compare to my month of simply talking to you. you just get me and make me see that life is simple. i love that you want whatever i decide i want when it comes to us. you know my heart is constantly running from itself and you told me that you won’t grab it but you’ll run along beside it. because that’s the only way to get a girl like me to stay around. tonight we talked about your leaving and you told me not to worry because when you come to visit you’ll be knocking at my door. this makes me heart jump because i didn’t ask you to, it just shows you want me around beyond tomorrow. you may be a backwoods boy from a world that’s not my own…. but i cannot wait to see where things go.
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to my best friend,
i may not always have the words to ease your pains or your fears but i will offer you my hand to hold and ear to listen. your world is mine and whatever you have to face i’ll face it to. i can’t promise you it will be easy, this thing called life. but i will promise you this nothing will ever break you completely. and when the hits come and your ready to surrender i’ll take that battle until you can stand up again. you’re my blessing and i cherish you and hope to make every laugh a little louder and every tear less wet. i love you.
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